yeah so fuckin dont really have time to draw now a days, sometimes thats where i feel my heart is, in creation, this engineering is really just a foundation to support a vision i guess...well ive been writing doing sopme quick sketches, i still got it, i just cant really take it to the next level yet...with out a little pain to the other side of my fucking brain, i guess who knows, i could always just loose it, one day i hope to have that freedom of just being able to loose it drift off into my imagination and let those who want to come along for the ride come.. unfortunatly or apparently or whatever whatever i guess im just gonna have to fucking buckle down right now, and do some vectors and magnitudes, some fucking bullshit.. i got alot to do dont really got time, school school school , i want to make movie script, write childrens book, try out for some auditions, go to some art shows, make a music cd...got natural talent for golf, prob should pursue that i mean like nailed these fuckers in seconds with out warm up... fuckin eat caviar and drink wine and shit out green shit....aaahh kind of like a renaissance man..be a shark in business for all these things and really keep an open mind to others ideas and give them an opportunity to unleash there imagination to the world. So i guess accomplishment wise, these are my life goals...oh yeah make a simple invention be like the sham wow guy, got to do that to...got alot of fuckin shit, im gonna do it once im upgraded from fucking education oh yea i got to do a comic book....main theme i guess is inspiration to be the best of the best at what you do....challenge yourself, if your not satisfied its not cause your pathetic cause uh, you need to step up your fucking game......by the way all these ideas ive been cooking in my head for a while, the funny thing is im not much of a consumer, ive always been an entrapanuer from stuffing my back pack full of candy in middle school from cosco, to art for fun, fliers and some business..i study people, thats where my heart is, and that is why i am able to produce and consume i guess they go hand to hand like yin and yang...my self reflected world of observations seems to contain less self then those of others, maybe thats what my key is...who knows. prob in my nature if you want to flip me around that would make me really selfish, maybe selfish and vicious in what i need to do to be who i want to be, unselfish in my observations...shit gets old though, find myself just crackin jokes to make the same shit more enlightening....i dont know how much deeper i could of dug....im pretty much just living life now, havin fun, looking forward to the future...i mean what else can i do....you want to know what the truth is...the truth is this life is a test, once you end they'll wake you up from a video game pod, and if you were a bad guy they will line you up with the other rotten apples and have a shooting squad shoot you down...the ones that were good i guess have the choice of going back or watching the others play this video game of life...or maybe they send the bad ones back into the game untill they get it right, im pretty fucking extreme i fucking love myself, whipe your face with some of my narcisism.. and pisss some mispeling